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Tuesday, December 6, 2022

Still Stuck In Limbo

Surgeon confirmed some pretty gnarly scoliosis, but it's apparently balanced in such a way that surgery would be riskier than just leaving it alone for now.  The first pain management place I went to was pretty much...a fucking disaster.  Brought me in to tell me they don't prescribe painkillers there, only do steroid shots and that they don't do them for scoliosis or spinal issues...well fucking thanks guys, I'm gonna enjoy having to lie in bed for three days just for the pleasure of getting told to fuck off.  Ever heard of a fucking phone call?

So the surgeon is hooking me up with ANOTHER pain management place and hopefully they actually do what they're supposed to do.  Took my last tramadol just now and hey, pain is manageable enough to type this out.  Sure would like some more!  God forsaken hillbillys just ruining painkiller access for all us responsible people!

Some people would say this is good news, not having to have surgery, but...I still don't know why I'm in so much pain and I still don't know what's really wrong...what I love doing most in this word is still impossible, I'm still homebound, etc.  Yesterday was when I saw the surgeon, so...pretty big blow I'm still feeling the weight of, which is probably responsible for why this post is so morose.  Been nothing but one blow after another for over a year now...

I'll probably start leaning how to dictate using software next year, but...that's not the magic bullet some people seem to think it is, so don't expect books to magically be done in a few months once I start.  When you're writing a 200k book at 99% accuracy that's still two thousand errors.  And I'm a writer, not a talker, I could just suck at this.  The one plus is the King Henry Tapes are told in speaking style so...we'll see, I guess?

The software might implode the entire internet when I say Pougpaellieth the first time...

Don't expect any more updates for a few months at least.


Saturday, October 15, 2022

Heaps of Bull****

So my doctor got fired/quit/leg-go/whatever-the-fuck.  Which explains the sudden "vacation" and why I couldn't get an early appointment while the new doctor found her footing.  Not sure if it's kosher of the medical office to not tell me this or to just spring the new doctor on me when I stepped in the door, but...

Am loving the new doctor, she immediately did what I'd been expecting to be done a year ago and hooked me up with both pain management (appointment scheduled in November) and a neurosurgeon (appointment scheduled in December).

Writing has been extremely limited to once a week max for a couple hours tops.  It's not just the act of typing, it's that I know I'm going to pay for it the next couple days and Tylenol just is not working any more, maybe never did.  I look back on what I pushed myself through to finish EVERCHANGING and it's just...what a mad bastard!  Did make the exhausted/beatdown Evelyn scenes pretty method though...

So anyway, hopefully the hook me up with a steady supply tramadol next month.  I have some I've taken during the worst days and it does a wonderful job taking the edge off, as one would expect.  Also blew through one a day for a test run a few weeks back for like...four days?  And I felt a ton better and was able to write for four hours a day every other day and that's actual progress I'd be happy with at this point!

After that...surgery of some sort, we can hope.  At least a huge steroid needle maybe.  Mmmm...spine needle.  Kinky.

Speaking of "paying for it", I'm gonna stop typing now and watch some TI 2022.

Sunday, October 9, 2022

Wednesday, September 14, 2022

Quick Summary of September

Last Two Weeks Super Ungodly Melt Electronics Hot = No Write.

Next Two Weeks Not Hot Actually Nice and Pleasant = Hoping To Write.*

*Depending On How Much of An Asshole My Spine Wants to Be

Friday, August 26, 2022

Proof of Life August

Still limping around.

Working on new stuff when I can, but hurt the back again and have needed the last two weeks to recover, should be writing again next week.  I suppose I should be happy we've progressed to two steps forward/one step back as opposed to step forward/step back/stuck in place I dealt with from Feb to June, but annoying that I'm getting occasionally sidelined still.  Biggest annoyance is that obviously there's some things I CAN'T do, like picking up heavy objects, using a controller, etc, without hurting it and so I know to be very careful but sometimes...it just gets hurt and I'm not sure what caused it.  Was it sneezing?  Was it writing every other day instead of every three days?  Was it that I stayed up later than usual or didn't get enough sleep to rest the muscles?  Was it the hardcore bondage orgies?  So frustrating... 

Super miserably hot in Fresno even for Fresno.

Tried multiple times to get a quicker appointment at my doctor's but they're booked like crazy so I'm waiting another month to hopefully finally get hooked up with some specialists that can finally figure this out.

Another RR movie rec:  Thirteen Lives.  Fan-freaking-tastic movie making from Ron Howard.  About the Thai cave rescue a few years back.  Very understated and just let's the situation play itself out without any extra frills.  You just don't really need the extra tension when the fear of drowning and the weight of all that rock and just how tight those spaces are does all the work for you

Monday, August 8, 2022

Tease: Guess the Speaker Edition #5

“Faced with any possible use of its newly acquired free time, the mongoloid rushes across the campus just so it can ruin my breakfast, why am I not surprised?”

Monday, July 25, 2022

Still Circling the Runway

Really starting to feel like the Universe is conspiring against me at this point.  Had to wait to see my doctor to go over the MRI results as is and now she's gone for vacation for three weeks and I don't even get a reschedule call until Aug 8th at the earliest.  After all the other delays and insurance bullshit it just feels cruel.  Not that the woman isn't super overworked and overloaded and doesn't deserve her time off, but...feels like the office staff bungled everything yet again.

July WAS better than June which was better than May, but I'm still extremely limited writing-wise and just about anything wise.  Tell me, what's it like sitting in a chair?  Is it fun?  I've forgotten by this point...

Instead of 1-2 hours every three days call it 2-3 hours every other day with the occasional extra break day thrown in.  Tried buying a mini-keyboard controller I could just text-type slowly with and see if that was better, but pretty sure it was actually worse and I've tweaked something, so back to the normal laptop keyboard as able.

Progress wise I'm down to just 3 pages needing to be typed in and then we'll be onto new material.  This should be easier since I'll just have my eyes on the screen instead of twisting back and forth to read and then type and think and edit-as-I-go and all that.

Even at 2-3 hours every other day I figure I can manage 10k words a month, not fast, quite the malaise actually, but...do that ten months in a row and you do have a novel.  A normal novel.  Not the ever monstrosity WAR TO END ALL WARS is turning into.  So...the possibility of progress exists when it seemed very impossible just a few months ago.  Consider that a bright spot.

I like what I've written, so...that's also going well.  At least the scenes as they are.  The novel...I've extended the estimate out to 180k and even then I'm not sure 95k is enough to wrap everything up I've set into motion.  This shouldn't be this complicated...it's just a school story.  But then...it's capping six novels and dozens of shorts and references on a whole timeline while introducing a whole new generation which will have active roles in our mainline, so...

I think my biggest WTF RALEY is that I'm 85k into this monster and there's an argument to make we're just getting to the real story starting.  Which even for me is super slow rolling things...so I wonder if I should cut off parts of the beginning and yet they set other beats up that I need later in the novel and... well, this writing gig is hard if you want to do even a passible job of it...

And it's FRESNO SUMMER HELL, so my brain is generally just overheated mush and my laptop's fan is threatening to strike unless it gets overtime pay.  I hear some of our European brethren are getting to share our misery this year, so cheers, mates!

Anyway, the ellipses are breeding rapidly at this point, so let's call this your proof of life for the next month or so. 

6/30 UPDATE:  1 page left.  Sneezed yesterday and my back is very outraged, so might need a few extra days.  But the important info:  I finally watched "EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE" last night and it's highly recommended.  Best movie I've seen in years.  Maybe since Mad Max Fury Road...at least since Parasite.  Tears, uncontrollable laughter, disbelief, cool camera techniques, great acting...Ke Huy Quan especially blew me away.  I  mean...it's an existential horror, exploration of suicide, multiverse, martial arts, family drama, coming of age comedy...

Just...watch it if you haven't already.

Tuesday, June 28, 2022

MRI Day

Down to about 8 hw pages left to type/edit in, then new stuff for War to End All Wars.  Was writing every third day pretty much before this, but the spine DOES NOT like it when I lie flat on my back and having to do it for 90 minutes on a hard slab is probably going to temporally ruin my semi-crippled ass, so might need a week or two off after this.

Car rides also aren't high on my list...so that won't help either...

But at least we'll finally know what's going on in there and hopefully develop a game-plan towards fixing the problem.  Surgery of some sort, I imagine.  Since I've very done with this half-life shit.

Wish me luck!

Monday, June 20, 2022

We All Deserve a Tease

First good, painless night writing/editing I've had in over six months.  Progress being made again, MRI next week.  Literal first draft, so everything will change and typos and yada yada, but...enjoy!  Who knows how long the spine will hold out for me to keep going, but here's hoping!

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Camping Test weekend.

Here at last.

One month down, ten more to go.

Only ten more to go…

Not a single dead body, but a few epic anima discharges along the way.

Max won the prize for the Most Embarrassing.  Never seen anyone shoot piss across a bathroom like that, much less all the way to the ceiling, and sure as fuck not for almost ninety seconds straight.  Like the poor kid was trying to control a fire-hose, but he only had a few inches to grab on.  Damn near lifted him off the ground at one point.  Not that I saw it all, took me a minute to run into the communal bathroom and…thought someone maybe tripped and busted a knee, but…even after it was over, poor Max looked like wanted to die.  Now I’m worried he’s gonna shotgun a hole through someone every time he whacks off!

Most Dangerous went to the Kanes.  Starting their usual sibling argument shit—so fucking happy JoJo wasn’t a mancer at this school or things would’ve gotten bloody!—over which was better and then suddenly they ain’t glaring eyeballs, they’re both glaring big spouts of flame at one another.  They didn’t smolder themselves, but their colors caught on fire.  Had them rolling on the ground, blasting them with an extinguisher and whatever dirt my geo-anima pool could add to the mix.  Was plenty embarrassing too, being they had to walk half-naked into the Infirmary and stay the night for observation…

And yes, I noped out like a pussy before Miss Strange started blaming me for any of it!

Camping Test weekend.

The first day in a month where I get to be me again.  Think for me.  Not think for thirty fucktards.  And a dog.  Can’t forget the dog.  Or his ass.

First day where I get just a little bit of my Asylum life back.

Didn’t think I’d miss it, but I did.

Wasn’t even day yet.

Earlier.

Super fucking early.

Had-A-Coke-Binge-And-Woke-Up-In-A-Whorehouse-Bathtub kind of early.

Everyone else got to sleep in cuz…weekend…but not the Foul Mouth.

I was in charge of the Singles.

I had duties.

I didn’t get to dream about sunshine and rainbows and…mountainsides that won’t shut up about weird anima shit.

Not everyone.  Mr. Gullick is leading the test this year and Wolfgang von Welf has to run his pack out to the camp site and there’s the bus driver and…and you!  King Henry Price!  Special purple penis butterfly, just like you always wanted!

Technically I was only supposed to head downstairs and wake up Class 2015, but if I have to be awake and it’s a holiday and all that, why should I put a cap on my joy-o-meter?

Joy-o-meter should go all the way to the fucking moon!

Also…I might have double dosed some special dark sin death-god European style Espresso something or other coffee that I pilfered from Welf a while back and…it hadn’t fixed everything in my life—still very horny—but the rest?  Felt really fucking awake right now.  Like…my eyeballs had eyeballs and they were wide open too.  And I might not like waking up in the pre-morning-even-roosters-still-sleeping of a holiday weekend, but…waking up other people in the pre-morning-even-roosters-still-sleeping of a holiday weekend?

All those dorm doors!

All those sleeping friends just wasting the day away!

Double Sin Eater Cat Scratch Fever Coffee said:  of course you should, King Henry, of course you fucking should!

Geo-anima just bubbled on up as rebellion and havoc raced through my veins right beside all that caffeine.  Slammed my fist into Jesus’ door right next to mine.  His fault for not moving away yet.  Not that anyone would have traded , but with Athir dead and Isabel imprisoned there were open spots.

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Yeah, that joke is a little fucked up even for me.

But…Midnight Demon Razor Blowpop Coffee said:  you’re so funny, King Henry!

I slammed my fist like five more times in quick succession.

Ain’t a tall man, won’t ever be, but I inherited my father’s massive hands and knuckles.  Made for some explosive raps and some solid thuds.

Door opened just a sliver.

Dark inside.  Only light was from a television in the bedroom, playing static insanity.  Even the LED lights in the hallway were still stuck in power-saver mode, little embers of orange uselessness.  Might not trip and break your neck, but couldn’t read any graffiti painted across the walls.  Got to use glow-in-the-dark stuff…if you like…wanted to write ‘Welf likes being pegged’ for any reason whatsoever…

Jesus met my eye.  Just the one, rest of him hidden behind the door.

Eye promised pain.

So much pain.

Stray dogs pissing on my porch, gnawing on my ankle, eating my cat, shit like that.

Returned him something that could vaguely be described as a smile.  “Mornin’, Lord and Savior, have you heard the good word?”

He took in my colors, fully dressed for my day.  “You’re a pendejo, El Rey.”

“Camping Test weekend, ol’ buddy, knew you wouldn’t want to miss any minute of it.  It being your first truly big Book Keeper event and all that, bets coming in from every angle, side bets on top of that, teachings wanting in on the action.  Really don’t want to fuck it up…especially after all the arguments got started about whether lesbians counted for your first bet given the wording you used and then the way—like by magic more powerful than the Mancy itself—there was this totally organic extra argument about how it was sexist and bigoted if they didn’t count…on some thin ice, ol’ buddy, on some very thin ice…”

Jesus’ eye got across that it might not be a stray dog doing the pissing on my porch.  “How long are you going to keep punishing us, El Rey?”

“Oh, I don’t know…not that much longer…you are awake for the day, right?  You ain’t gonna go back to sleep when I leave, are you?  Anyone at all could stop by, banging on the door, since some totally random person might spread the word that you’re already open for business…”

Jesus’ eye got across that it would neither be a dog nor would it be piss, but from the other end.  “You haven’t made a wager, I noticed.”

“Insider trading, ain’t it?” I swapped from smile to canine grin.

“Bet on Leah, didn’t you?”

“Well…given the boys in Class 2015, it was pretty obvious she was the only one ever seen someone else's vagina before.”

“Or maybe it’s harder for you to rig the Camping Test.”

“Nah, obviously about how honorable and noble I am.”

Bed squeaked behind Jesus like someone had gotten out of it.

We stared at each other for a spare moment.

“Hope she’s prettier than a goat,” I forced myself to tease.

“Pretty enough I don’t mind their being no hooves,” Jesus quipped back.

“Also hope she ain’t Hope…”

He grunted, subconsciously sliding the door ever slightly towards closing.  “Least I have something to do now you woke me up.”

“You didn’t kidnap Tossy for the night, did you?  I’d have to report that shit…”

“El Rey, how much caffeine did you gulp down?”

“Wasn’t the size so much as the fact it was less liquid and more coffee-flavored syrup that I'm pretty sure made my pubes vibrate Thunderstruck all the way through the first chorus.”

“El Rey…promise me you’ll never do cocaine, okay?”

“Sure.  Good advice, Jesus, good advice.”

Thursday, June 2, 2022

May Sucked, June Might Not

Kind of figured you lot are as tied of these depressing whiny updates as much as I am of typing them, so I haven't bothered.

Back went crazy again to start the month, spent 2 weeks horizontal in bed and not the fun kind of horizontal.  Also kept up the knife fighting with my insurance and just generally hating all of existence but bureaucracy more than anything else...

Then, about a week ago things FINALLY started turning around.  I don't know if reinjuring the back kickstarted another go of the healing process or what, but the pain shifted from purely muscle and spinal and fuck-you-you-can't-sit-up to being more nerve based, especially in my arm/leg/foot.  That's still very bad, obviously, and I'm still hobbling around, but...you can ignore your foot screaming and still kind of function, plus its been getting better day to day, so...getting back in the saddle writing wise seems like a possibility if nothing else goes wrong or I regress back to how the pain presented before.

Cross those fingers and toes!  If you can feel your toes...

Also, the insurance has FINALLY granted approval for the lumbar and thoracic MRIs I need and looks like those could be done this month, maybe soonish, so we'll FINALLY know what's actually wrong up in that curved mess I've got going on in my spine.

So as the title says:  May Sucked, June Might Not.

Author still alive.

Not promising anything because at this point tempting Fate seems like a bad idea, but...June Might Not Suck As Much.

Wednesday, April 27, 2022

Nothing Happening

Dealing with doctors and referral departments STILL MRI-less as the bureaucratic and administrative mistakes pile up on all sides, trying not to hurt my back so bad I have to lie in bed all day, editing for a few hours occasionally when able a couple times a week...

Playing Hearthstone again...Duels is fun...

Madrid vs City was crazy awesome...

Two thumbs up to The Batman...

50 pages left to edit + the handwritten stuff.  Yeah, super slow progress.  Do like what I've written.  Start of the book is kind of...a mess, but I'm not sure if I want to cut or where and if I can bring myself to kill so many jokes and great character moments just for pacing...especially since the point of WTEAWs is to BE indulgent and extra jokey and extra character based and plot be damned..."This is filler!" whiners will be out in force though...

Just never been this frustrated in my entire life.  I feel like my time is being stolen from me.  

Sherburt's still adorable, so there's that!

Though I could do without the 3AM surprise shoulder kneading sessions...

Sorry for the blah update!  Here's hoping next month we've seen some spine progress and that I can at least get those last 50 pages and the handwrittens typed in.

Take care of yourself, you only get one body!

Thursday, April 7, 2022

Biggest FMing I've Ever Experienced

WTF!!!  10.0 GK!!!

 


Cost me Invincible BTW


Anyway...still editing a bit here or there.  Down to 100 ms pages left + the hw to type in before we're on to new material with WAR TO END ALL WARS.  Still in a ton of pain.  Still waiting on my doctor's office to get their heads of our their collective asses on the MRI.

Doing what I can, but this is super rough.  Grieving my grandfather was brutal, but at least because my head was in such a bad place I was unable to really be frustrated.  I was just an overwhelmed mess that couldn't feel much of anything else.  Now, frustration is all I feel...I'm so ready to write, it's all I want to do---12 hours a day, sign me up coach!---and...I just can't do it because my body can't take the strain, can't take anything beyond a few hours a day more than 2 or 3 days in a row...

Just going to keep going, limping and crawling along the marathon route this go around!

Saturday, March 26, 2022

Minor Non Update + Movie/TV Blathering

Still waiting on the back to settle down from the poking and prodding, though I have been able to sit on the edge of the bed for 8-12 hours a day for the last three days, granted yesterday with some considerable pain before I tapped out on the early side.  Here and now we try some minor typing!

MRI request is finally off to the insurance and expected to be accepted, so...more poking and prodding to come!  Hoping I can sneak editing what I have of WAR TO END ALL WARS and typing in those 15 hw pages before the big date.  If twisting for a couple minutes while they check how fat my liver is (no longer fat!) knocked me into bed for almost two weeks I greatly, GREATLY dread what an hour on a hard MRI slab is going to do to me.

EVERCHANGING DILEMMA is up to almost 100 reviews, 95% of them 4+ plus with the vast amount 5 star, so...I guess I still don't suck.  Sales are...going.  You always want more!  But...delay, side-character, all that, we'll take it and use the momentum.

Mostly reading and watching tv/movies for my own entertainment.  Finally got to see Spider-Man...was fun.  I don't think the "world turning against the hero" thing works post Snap.  Let's take the word of the guy that saved 4 billion people, okay?  Didn't work when the Falcon needed a loan either in "Falcon and Winter Soldier".  Stephen Strange also came off pretty stupid...just writing with a required unmovable endpoint driven by marketing and very unearned, but man, we all wanted to endpoint so you have to forgive them for it and grin like a twelve-year-old boy over your first Giant Sized Annual adventure.

French Dispatch...love Wes Anderson so loved this too.  2nd season of Demon Slayer was hype as fuck and just so beautiful, I love that whole color vs contrast style.  Not a complex story with complex characters, but it does what it sets out to do at 110% and you have to appreciate that.  Pam and Tommy, major 90s nostalgia but just a miserable sad story with no winners.  Am surprised that Shai-Hulud isn't the biggest worm I've seen on my tv screen in the last year...and this one talks!

Rick and Morty Season 5...has there always been that many animal based episodes?  Horses, crows, ferrets, etc!  Reacher, never read the books, but a fun 8 episodes all around.  Peacemaker...I feel like I must be related to James Gunn somehow, somewhere.  That said, I liked it, but I didn't love it.  Which was a surprise.  You'd expect me to be all over that show and I do recommend it if you're my fan because it is very King Henry Tapes in style and humor, but...maybe it's TOO close to the point where I prefer what I do compared against Peacemaker's straight up in-your-face idiocy?  Eagly is best boy though!

Reading wise working my way through Dane Jones' War of the Roses (pro tip:  child kings are bad, mkay!) and started my first new writer in like five years with the Dead Djinn Series by P. Djeli Clark.  Almost done with his novella then going into the first novel.  Enjoying it.  Wish this is what Urban Fantasy had naturally evolved into instead of the Twilight Clone Army though the 2010s.

Basically:  1920-ish alternate reality Cairo with djinns and magic and automations.  Reminds me a lot of Naomi Novik's His Majesty's Dragon books, granted 100 years later and with djinn instead of dragons, but same feel of alternate history, also Urban Fantasy mystery novel instead of fantasy war novels as well.

Anyway, consider this Proof of Life for the next month and let's hope the next time I type all that work on WAR TO END ALL WARS is done and the MRI is over with and we have a clue as to what my near future will be to fix all this pain and hobbling about!

3/30 Update:  Good news = edited 60 pages over the last three days.  Bad news = I'm hobbling around the house like Obadiah Paine and can't feel two of my toes.  Need a few days horizontal to recover.  Think I'll need to limit myself to a day  on/day off work schedule going forward.  Hopefully that will let me find some consistency.

Sunday, March 6, 2022

Where We're At, March 2022

Everchanging Dilemma:  Better sales than I though specific to the new book so quickly, love the fact people can just leave ratings on Amazon now so you're not struggling to get reviews like the old day.  Reviews have been 90% awesome, so that's cool.  Few complaints I've seen are the expected "KH not in it" "side novel" "filler" "took too long".

Amazon ads are still half shell game in what they report back to you...Kindle Unlimited downloads per click plz?  Still?  3 years after I last did this?  Unless I'm missing it somehow...

New book creating new readers is, however, struggling so far.  We'll see if it turns around as the algorithms start doing their work and I realizes I'm alive again week by week into the coming months.

I am pretty done with the whole release phase however and moving into...

War to End All Wars:  90 pages down through the First Draft 2.0 edit I'm doing.  I've been immediately reminded why I got sidetracked on a mainline story having to delve into magic high school again.  I'm very ready to end the school story, ladies and gents.  Truth be told I was over the school story with FM4 when I decided to cut half of them from the novels.

Don't get me wrong, KH is absolutely hilarious in this novel.  Lot's of Val, Welf, Miranda, Pocket, Jesus, all the characters you love.  New characters.  Class 2015 is VERY important going forward and you need to meet them all.  But...no dragons!  No vampires!  No Crazy!

There's also this realization that I'm going to get torn to pieces for putting out a whole school story novel in some circles of the fan base that aren't prepared for that and...not looking forward to it!  If they thought Everchanging Dilemma was filler, what are they going to say about this?!?

That said...man, there are some choice scenes in this book.  Maybe the best Welf v King Henry argument I've ever written.   No hyperbole.  I love some of the Class 2015 kiddies and I've got pages and pages of them (and old favorites!) to write and that's so fun.

After I'm done with this readthrough we've got about 15 hw pages still kicking around to type in and then I'm full bed-desk-thingy mode and blocking off the net and just focusing in through late March forward.

Medical Crap:  HOWEVER.  I do have two post-surgery procedures to get through in the next week, so 7th-15th will be very limited progress.  My father is also having his lungs hot-water-power-blasted in an effort to continue keeping him breathing and living and...we're still worried.  He's been better but not out of the woods yet on the whole Walking Stroke thing and this procedure requires him to be sedated 3 times over as many months, so...yikes!

Back-wise...I'm a wreck.  Still.  Can't sit a chair, can't lift anything.  Can take a shower without wanting to lie in bed for hours afterwards, so that's better.  Can sit on the edge of the bed for about 12 hours a day with only occasional break and hey, I'm typing this, aren't I?  But still very iffy.  Not a normal human.  Can't hold a console controller...no Elden Ring for RR!!!  So far I'm up to using the bed-desk-thingy for about 3 to 4 hours a day, so that's pretty much what my progress is limited to.  Will try to work up to more and more as the weeks and endurance builds, hopefully.

Still no news on the MRI.  It's "in progress" over two weeks since the last request.  Which I suppose is better than me be immediately told to fuck off and do physio like last go around.  Here's hoping for some good news next week while I'm busy with all the other doctors stuff!

March 12th Update:  Been a complete mess all week.  Can barely sit up for a few hours at a time, no typing whatsoever.  Mostly just reading and watching tv again while staring longingly at the closed laptop.  Last procedure is Tuesday then hopefully I can be back at writing by the end of the month.  Really frustrating...

March 17th Update:  Last procedure done.  Just recovering and waiting for my back to settle down.  Hopefully I'll be writing again with the bed-desk-thingy by next week.  Still no word on my MRI.  Pretty sure it's my doctor's office that's fucking up this go around.  I leave a message for them every other day and I've been completely ghosted for the last week.  Will keep doing what I can with WAR TO END ALL WARS until something changes, I guess...

Friday, March 4, 2022

FM6 Cut Court Scene

 So, I don't think I've shown this.  Before I just did the 'fuck it' cut strait to the Paine scene in PIT OF NO RETURN, I did actually start putting some time into the whole Artificial Court aspect and show the next day of the trial.  This is obviously first draft material and not canon at this point and the jokes are...iffy, even for King Henry and it has writer's notes where I couldn't remember names or saved naming for later, but thought you might enjoy!

Of course, it also serves as another viewing of the messy sausage making process that is writing.

Copyrighted by me, Richard Raley, all rights reserved, do not copy and paste but instead link back here please, etc.

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The coffee cup Val found me was the only thing keeping me upright at the moment.  Had trouble with that all morning.  Doesn’t help that in addition to all the stupid shit I’ve done in the last twenty-four hours,  the rotunda benches have no backs on them.  Wasn’t for Val or Ceinwyn reaching out to steady me I probably would’ve gone ass upwards into the second row by now.

Said crowd had grown from yesterday.  Only yesterday?  That was my whole morning.  Starting the trial was fucking yesterday?  Are you fucking shitting me?  But it was and today there was a bigger crowd.  More Artificers, more auxiliary members, more guests.  There was a literal royal princess in the audience.  No, I’m not saying what country; that would be rude.  Hint:  one of the ones who would do anal.  So not the one from England.  I’m betting…given how often she’s popping out kids.

But onto more important matters than whether the Duchess of Cambridge does anal or not…

No idea where Val had found the coffee at.  Maybe the Guild has its own Starbucks somewhere in their underground labyrinth; they sure are fucking everywhere else.  Had a cup with breakfast but caffeine’s effects didn’t last long when you stacked this many hours of wakefulness on top of one another.  Only managed a quick forty-five minute power nap before Watson banged on my cell door.  Had a cup of coffee and a tiny plate of toast for me.

Not even a single one of those too-small jam packets you get from IHOP.

Guessing my meager meal was another punitive measure at Massey’s order.  No English breakfast, no bacon, no sausage, not even the tofu kind until I play the part he wants me to.  Bad boy for taking Ceinwyn Dale’s help instead of mine!  No soup until you surrender.

I don’t surrender, Massey, just ask [Diamond Sword whatever they're called].

If he could find one of them that’s still breathing.

The race against the clock trying to clean up the evidence had been more worrying than the actual massacre.  Barely had time to register that, for the first time in my life, the answer to the question about how many men I’d killed was:  not a fucking clue.  Know how many I saved.  One templar, five Black Elf mothers, a grandma, a teenage girl, an adolescent boy, and a further mix of five children barely came to my belly button.

Didn’t stick around long; left to go grab Ceinwyn, so I could return her to Val’s apartment.  Didn’t stick around long there either.  Back across the valley of death I geo-surfed.  Saw a pair of bears fucking in the mushroom woods…guess that’s the circle of life.  Grabbed my extra change of clothes, careful not to get any blood on even the bag.  Crossed over into my cell, taking a shower by Magic Wand.  Change, quick trip to the Geo Realm to hide the bloody clothes and the towel I used to dry off.

Another hour checking over the hallways and bathroom for specks of blood while the shadows played tricks on me.

Collapsed into a chair, fell asleep.  Get awakened by a smiling, too-happy Canadian guardsman.

Deal with Massey’s bullshit trial while trying to stay awake.

While trying to deal with the fact how impossible the day before this one seemed, as engrossed in the mundane as I now was.  Was just yesterday that I made up with Ceinwyn, right?  Usually that kind of break with my past self took longer than a day.  I’m the same guy got off on being the first to cast a vote yesterday, right?  Same guy the day before finally told his girlfriend he loved her.

Felt in control then.

More in control than I do now at least.

My plan had a certain amount of acceptable Crazy in it, but we’d blown on through that fucker.  Pretty sure no one’s holding the steering wheel at the moment.  Also pretty sure we’re heading towards a cliff, kind with a waterfall and a ton of warning signs.

Stop while you can, bitch!

Hit the brakes, fucktard!

Hold on to your coot coot, grandma!

Of course Kate Middleton doesn’t do anal, you sexist pig!

Felt tired, not just because of the lack of sleep.  Felt like…I’d accomplished what I came for.  Did I really need to break into that safe when I’d already ransacked the breadth of the Vault?  Couldn’t I call it all off, leave that valley behind for whatever scavengers they had in the Geo Realm?  Sure I could.  I was leaning towards it even.

Sleep tonight.

All I want to do.

Don’t even want to wait until tonight, but I have to keep playing the game right now.

Trial, disciplinary hearing, shit show.  First two charges against me had already been examined.  Was expecting some anal probeage, but not for those two faces to turn up as witnesses against me.  Not a lot of choice if a mancer is called, just look at Plutarch forced to come all this way, but the second fucker, no excuses for you…I’m gonna remember this.

The first charge was the worst, because I had broken the letter if not the spirit of the law.  I made artifacts that could be considered weapons if you twisted the word weapon into a pretzel.  Fucking guilty.  It’s the rule I can’t that’s stupid as shit.  Not like I made a fireball pyro-bazooka or something, I made defensive tools interested with self defense.

That should be legal.

Common sense.

I’m sure a bulletproof jacket has killed someone once upon a time, maybe it sucked them down into a river or something, but it’s pretty hard to claim it’s a weapon.

Not the way MacNess explained it.  The Advocate laid out the case that SDRs were indeed capable of offensive use no matter what my opinions were on their purpose.  Jury nodded through it all, MacNess showing them diagrams and tables and some test results they ran on a pig.  Why a pig?  No clue, but the Mythbusters do it, so I guess it’s kosher.  To kill with an SDR by using it four times on the poor thing in half an hour.  Not to…like…eat.  Cuz…ya know, it’s a pig.

That make sense?

I’m fucking tired, okay?

Where were we?

Coffee.  Love my coffee.  Coffee and a bowl of chili, with a side of cornbread.  Ain’t exactly the most harmonious meal that’s ever been, but I ate it up.  Val sat beside me in the waiting room they’d locked the pair of us in.  Kept reaching over and running her hand over my hair like she could fix the mess of brown, but even she wasn’t that big of a Mary Sue.  Or maybe it was just her way to show affection for me without being able to say anything, since the both of us knew the likelihood of the room being bugged or having a secret peek hole was high.

Ceinwyn was busy doing Ceinwyn shit.

Political shit.

Greasing the wheels so that when we went to Massey at the end of this all and told him what was up, the other Guild members would vote for whatever bullshit agreement we came to.  Getting the shit beat out of me in the trial, but might get off with a slap on the hand still.  Maybe…depends on how Massey took the news about me knowing I’m a Maximus.  [Affluenza] strikes again and for the first time in my life I’m the one getting the Costco Executive Membership Card.

Felt wrong.

Felt as wrong as Val touching me felt right.

I wasn’t so tired I can’t even think, I’d give those peek hole watching fuckers a show alright, alright.

“Why don’t we just tell him now and we can catch a flight out of here in a few hours?” I’d asked that morning when my advisors arrived after my toast-sans-jam breakfast.

“That would be strong-arming him and stripping him of the cover he needs to keep on as Guild Master,” Ceinwyn explained.  “By going through with the trial and only then coming to him with our strongest response, we show him we could have used it all along and crushed him, but didn’t.  Alexander can be selfish, but he’s wise enough to know when he dodged a bullet.”

“So?” I complained.

“So by not making a fool out of him and showing him we didn’t make a fool out of him, he could be more disposed to make a preferable deal now and also in the future,” Ceinwyn tried again, holding back on comic references at least.

“Huh?” my sleep deprived brain still didn’t get it.

“It’s tactful,” Val translated.

“Oh…I see, yeah, I never bother with that shit.”

So baring some fireworks I had planned with the third and fourth charge, the plan was to give Massey his cover.  Meant me sitting on that bench, exhausted, as evidence piled up against me.  Meant mostly silence as the jurors questioned MacNess, passing over a million snappy interruptions I could have made.

Keep being a good boy, King Henry, means keeping your foul mouth shut for once.

I finished my chili and licked some cornbread crumbs off of my fingers.  Even love couldn’t keep Val from rolling her eyes at her caveman of a boyfriend.  Seen a bunch of cavemen yesterday, seen all sorts of horrible things happen to them, but none of it because of manners.  Happened to them cuz they chose to invade the wrong valley.  Happened cuz they thought they were invincible and they could do whatever they wantedManners…don’t mean shit when your leg or arm gets blown off.  Still didn’t feel any guilt, hours later.  Might never feel any guilt.  Geo-crush with their armor at the end might have been a bit excessive.

You think?

True measure of a god is in how he spends his first hour.

Me…I made my enemies go pop.

Think that makes me a vengeful, jealous kind of god.

Hey, if Superman can kill a few million people killing Zod, I get to kill a few barbarians to save my friend.  Sure, all the comic fanboys hated that shit, but…fuck the fanboys, right?  Not literally…cuz…no one fucking ‘em is how they ended up fanboys.

Yes, I’m rambling, I’m fucking tired!

“You need to sleep tonight,” Val said after another moment with her hand working leisurely through my hair.  Felt so good I might drift away right then and there.

“I know,” I grunted, wishing I had another bowl of chili to eat.

“No staying up worrying about the trial.  Or anything else.  We have recess tomorrow, that’s when Ceinwyn will do most of her magic, then your testimony in your defense, and then the voting.  That’s three days to do plenty of thinking during the night, no need to do anything rash.”

“I know,” I repeated.  Or cornbread…just one more piece of it, that would be nice.

“Don’t worry about your friends, we’re all fine.  I called Tyson this morning and everything is fine with the shop.  Worry about yourself for one night.”

Speaking of T-Bone, Val’s a lot better with this speaking in code shit than he is and the two of us don’t even have a code set up.  Maybe T-Bone overdid it…just a tad.  Second pair of clothes sure did come in handyThink I’ll make a quick trip tonight to steal the rest of that beef jerky out of the cache too…using a World-Breaker to get a snack…sure it’s not the first time someone’s done it.  Bet [Horoto Arashi] was all about finding some steeltusk bacon at 3AM after he smoked some opium or whatever it was they used as drugs back in the day.

“You really think we’ll finish with the witnesses today?” I asked her.  She was right about sleeping tonight.  If tomorrow was a recess then I could even snooze through it, be bright and ready for my last day of thieving.  If I even did it.  Had some doubts about returning to that valley again.  Just a stupid safe.  What you need a safe for in the middle of a huge vault like that?  Bet it has naked pictures of Massey’s wife in it or something equally stupid.

Even if I didn’t go back to steal more information, I guess I did owe Poug a goodbye better than the hurried parting I gave him hours ago.  Hours…ain’t even a day away now, just hours.

“If one witness per charge keeps up, then yes, I think we might,” Val said, “You won’t be too surprised about the next two, right?”

“Know who they are.”

“Plutarch?”

“Yeah.”

“And?”

“You ain’t gonna like it,” I told her.

“Same level of dislike as you had for the first witnesses or even greater?”

Star Witness the First:  Estefan Ramirez.

*

Came out thinking he’d won the lottery.

Big ol’ important senior agent got to represent ESLED at King Henry’s trial.

Had that pretty boy smile on his face, his hand flying about shaking hands with everyone between the entrance and the witness chair.  Had so much product in his hair I wouldn’t be surprised if a stiff breeze’s friction caused it to catch on fire.  Sitting in said witness chair like it’s a golden throne, not some dinky wooden job.

“Please state your name, occupation, and your status as an Elementalist,” MacNess started.

Estefan was only happy to.  “Estefan Ramirez, Senior ESLED Agent in the West Coast Division, Stormcaller.”

“You were in the same school class as the Accused were you not?”

“I was.”

“Yet you still agreed to represent ESLED in these proceedings?”

Estefan nodded, looking at everyone but me, Val, or Ceinwyn.  “I was tasked as Senior Agent in transporting King Henry to the Guild.  A day after arriving in London I was retasked with cooperating with the Guild at this trial, including being a witness if required, by ESLED Director De Clermont.”

Ceinwyn leaned in to whisper, “This isn’t about you and Estefan, this about the usual Recruiter and ESLED pissing contest.”

“Figured he would’ve won that given he’s got a pointer and all you got it a sprayer,” I whispered back.

Ceinwyn’s smile twitched.  “You’d be surprised what a woman can do with a little aero-anima.”

“Might want to quit your day job and start charging to see that trick on the internet, here there’s more money in it.”

Val shushed the both of us, earning looks from both her boss and her boyfriend.  “This is important,” she pointed out.

“This is boring as shit,” I complained.

“How are you going to cross examine him if you haven’t listened to what Estefan’s said?”

I grumbled but shut up all the same.  Ceinwyn’s smile twitched again, having enjoyed getting me into trouble and not having to play the adult both.

Estefan and MacNess had gone on for a bit, mostly ‘yes’ or ‘no’ questions about my time at the Asylum for now, many of those answers ‘yes,’ including about the waffle poisoning, the stripper thing, being lead suspect in having stolen the Staff of Rebirth…basically MacNess getting all my greatest hits on the record before turning to the SDRs themselves.

“Do you know what this is, Agent Ramirez?” MacNess asked while holding up one of the commercial variants of the SDR.

Huh, must have missed a Guild flunky, usually they’re pretty obvious and easy to kick out of the shop before they even see the merchandise, let alone buy any of it.

“I do,” Estefan said, “I’m wearing one right now.”

“I already provided evidence against this artifact that it was able to kill an animal in the Guild’s personal testing of it, have you ever seen it used in action?”

Estefan nodded.  “Twice.”

“Expound please.”

“I watched King Henry use it on a friend of ours.  They had gotten into a fight because King Henry is King Henry and his mouth is always going and King Henry zapped Jason unconscious.”

Beside me, Val covered her face with both hands.

“Well when he says it that way,” I grumbled.

“And the second instance?” MacNess pushed.

“Four months ago on a stop in New Mexico, my partner and I followed a lead to a group of Boar Nation thugs selling fauna-anima laced horse testosterone.  We jailed the faunamancer helping them and seized the horses, but had to destroy the stock.  Six Boars put up a fight and after my pool was exhausted I used my SDR to incapacitate the last suspect.”

“How long did it incapacitate him?”

“Twenty minutes give or take,” Estefan decided after searching his memory.

“So, not a simple stun gun voltage?”

“It has more of kick to it for sure.”

“What are ESLED operating standards concerning these SDRs?”

Estefan nodded like he got what MacNess wanted from him.  “To only use them after our pool has been completely exhausted and to only use them if we believe our life is threatened.  They also fall under statutes for general use of Elementalism in public and within the vicinity of a mundane and prohibited use against a mundane.”

“A higher threshold than even when mundane police officers use stun-gun devices then?” MacNess led.

“Yes, it’s considered lethal force equivalent to an electromancer.”

“Of which you are one.”

“Yes.”

“Could you kill someone with an equivalent usage of anima?”

Estefan nodded.  “I haven’t yet, but yes, I could.”

Crowd and the jury loved that…not as much as Massey did given the way his smile actually had some curve to it.

MacNess wasn’t even done.  “If you were in the same situation and it wasn’t just you who had one of these SDRs but also these Boar Nation thugs, would the situation have gone differently?”

Estefan finally glanced my way.  So there are limits to just following orders, I thought.  “It could have, but they didn’t.”

“There are variants of the SDR that are useable by mundanes or Weres however, aren’t there?  That use a pressure sensor or a lever instead of an anima pool to activate?” MacNess pushed.

“There are.”

“They’ve been found in use by the Coyote Nation, the largest Were Nation on the planet, have they not?”

“They have.”

Some gasps from the uninformed among the crowd.  The old Indian crone of a Guild-member and one of my jurors, Avani Sharma, scowled at me from across the rotunda.

“Artificer Price is selling SDRs to them.”

“We believe he is even if we’ve never confirmed it,” Estefan finally hedged.

“Why’s that?”

“Not priority,” he hedged some more.

“But it's illegal, isn’t it?  To provide artifacts to a Were Nation?”

“Usually, yes,” Estefan said to more gasps, before adding quickly, “However the Coyote Nation does have treaties with the Institution that other Were Nations don’t benefit from.”

“Well, that’s American politics, so I couldn’t speak to it,” MacNess waved it all away in perfect condescension.  “We certainly don’t make treaties with Were Nations on this side of the Atlantic.”

Some applause broke out above us, even nodding from the jury, especially Addington Muller, who was well known to aggressively dislike Weres and Vampires both, especially since Weres had been popping up in Europe and Africa more than ever.

Apparently finished with Estefan, MacNess took his seat beside Massey.   Yup, Cocksuckus Supremus has a big fat smile on his face, don’t he?  The Guild Master motioned to me, “Any questions Accused?”

Silence.

Any questions Accused?” Massey repeated louder than he had before.

Val nudged me in the back, causing me to blink.  Right, that’s me…the Accused…so accused got me a capital letter.  “I got to stay sitting or can I prance about like your boy?”

The loudest gasps yet.

I glanced all around me, frowning.  “What the fuck I do?”

Ceinwyn leaned over.  “Didn’t bother mentioning it, but MacNess is one of Alexander’s bastards.  He’s unrecognized however and you just committed a rather big social faux pas as far as European mancers are concerned.”

“And you thought the Welfs were bad,” Val teased me.  “Imagine if you went to school here.”

Really don’t want to.  Also, just remembered I might want to think about telling Val about Catherine Hayes, even if it’s not my secret to tell.  Honesty, it’s a pain in the ass.  Just like manners.  I tried to show some.  “My apologies, Guild Master, I was only using the vernacular term for ‘my boy,’ as in friend or acquaintance, not in the sense that, ya know…you fucked his momma nine months before he was born…which you apparently did.  Sure explains how he became a Master Craftsman despite being an auxiliary, don’t it?”

Whole new round of gasps and muttering and some scowling from Avani Sharma.  Did get a little smirk from Persephone Godfrey though and Muller covered a barking laugh behind his ring-covered hand.

Massey refused to answer me at all, refused to even speak he was so angry.  If he could have ordered the security golems to kill me for walking about in the rotunda, pretty sure he already would have.  Me, I had my own little delirium fantasy of pulling out the World-Breaker and making Massey go pop like I had that Diamond King.

When I stood up, I swayed a little bit.  Ceinwyn and Val both put out hands to steady me.

“Prancing might be beyond you, Artificer Price,” Massey finally attacked.  “Having trouble sleeping, are we?  Guilt weighing you down?”

Ignoring him, I held up some fingers for Estefan.  “Five questions, Ramirez, then you can talk to the jurors over there.  Don’t worry, I’ll be gentle, I’m always a gentle soul, ain’t it?”

“No, Foul Mouth; never heard that, even from Boomworm.”

I took a circle around the rotunda, enjoying all those eyes on me.  Fame’s shit, but I love me some infamy.  Sure, I wasn’t looking my best, extra rumpled, hadn’t shaved whole time I been in the Pit, was soaked in blood not even four hours ago, but…felt good to do a little strutting.  “Question One,” I finally said, “despite all those adolescent pranks of mine MacNess made you tell them about, what rank did I graduate with from our year?”

“Second in the Year, somehow,” Estefan said.

“Question Two:  how many SDRs have I provided for ESLED to protect their agents in the field?”

“I don’t know the exact number, but over a hundred at least.”

My walking carried me behind Estefan now, near Massey, who simmered with rage.  “You okay?” I asked him.  “Wiggling so much looks like you have to pee.”

“Embarrassing me does nothing to save you or to win our bet,” he whispered.

“Nope, just fun,” I agreed with him.  Does nothing, but Ceinwyn wanting us to hold off on telling you my Get out of Jail Not-So-Free Card or not, wanting you on our side going forward or not, I really enjoying pissing you off.  Been such a fun six months of Massey Baiting, why should I stop now?

“Question Three:  One hundred prime, newly invented artifacts, all going to ESLED, know what the mark up on them was on construction and labor cost?”

“Only Director De Clermont or one of the quartermasters would know that,” Estefan tried to be truthful, too truthful for my tastes.

“Surely you’ve heard rumors, it being the Asylum and no one at the whole place keeping gossip to themselves,” I prodded him.

“I’ve heard it’s only ten percent…you’re almost doing it for free.”

Rumbling from the crowd.  Mueller liked the idea of mancer law enforcement being supplemented with artifacts judging by how he nodded, but weapons dealer Gregorios Pachis saw it as problematic for his own business and grimaced.

“Question Four:  the Guild made their own version of an SDR and also offered to sell it to ESLED, how much more expensive were they going to be than mine?”

“Almost triple…again from the rumors,” Estefan added.

More rumbling.  Couldn’t do anything to make them think they weren’t weapons, but I could make myself look like a decent citizen and the Guild look like shit in comparison.  Around the rotunda again, this time stopping right in front of Estefan.  I held up a hand with all five fingers out. “Question Five:  you said you only get to use an SDR when your life is in danger.  So…did it save your life?”

Estefan looked me in the eye and his face grew shamed.  “I don’t know.  Maybe.  The moment would’ve played out differently, maybe I could’ve gotten to my pistol in time or maybe I could’ve fought him off long enough to get a small pool, but…it sure made my job easier.”

I nodded as the rotunda took in the fact that my weapon saved lives.  Didn’t push any more than I had to, but I knew a few of them had to wonder what other artifact weapons might be able to do.  Guilty by the letter, free by the spirit.  Could be a lot worse, I guess, sure the jury ain’t about to help me.

I sat back down between Val and Ceinwyn.

Both of them gave me a pat on the back.

Across from me, Massey’s smile had lost all appearance of a curve.

*

“Greater than Estefan, lower than Javier Castillo,” I decided after Val returned with a second cup of coffee for me.  “Your Hate a Person Scale is a lot lower than mine, obviously, so I doubt you ever rise much above the general annoyance I have at the pretty boy.”

“He’s just doing his job,” Val pointed out, sipping from her own coffee.  Given the steam wafting off of hers it was probably hot enough to melt the table.  “I know you don’t like that excuse, but ESLED had to send someone and he’ll defend them before he defends you, and he did defend you at the end.”

“Barely,” I grumbled.

“Also, I don’t dislike anyone as much as you dislike Javier Castillo, much less all the others you have above him.”

“The Curator?”

“Okay, one, but I doubt just a tiny bit that the Guild would bring him in as a witness against you…so…who else could it be?” she asked mostly herself, head cocked as she worked through the options.

“Don’t know about that, they brought in Castillo,” I grumbled some more.  It was a grumbling kind of day.

“That was extreme and it came across exactly that way,” Val pointed out.  “They hurt themselves as much as they hurt you by involving Weres in mancer business.  Guild Master Massey didn’t look very happy about how the crowd took it either.”

 No, he didn’t.  Even got in some fierce whispering with MacNess, making the younger man glance away in shame.  His boy, I thought, his bastard.  More proof European mancers were just weird and old fashioned compared to their American cousins.  Keeping birthright laws that went out of style two-hundred years ago, why not?  Guess there are more names and more fortunes to uphold out here.  As conservative as some Old Mancy kids I grew up with were—outside of Welf—most of them only dated back to sixth or seventh generation.  In Europe you weren’t even considered Old Mancy until you hit the tenth.

Nope, crowd didn’t like Castillo at all after I was through with him.  The fucker.  Remember Javier Castillo?  Maybe you don’t.  Only crossed paths with him at the Ouroboros.  Tlacochcalcatl of the Jaguar Nation, Peruvian, hates him some Horatio Vega…remember him now?  No?  You been paying attention at all?  Don’t think you have as good of an excuse as I do, just having been up for twenty-four hours and having massacred all them Black Elf barbarians.

Pop Quiz:  what color eyes Val got?

Yeah, yeah, you’re probably sick of hearing about them.

Okay, I forgive you…but you’re on super secret probation going forward.

Next question I ask won’t be so easy.  Be like…who’s the head of the [Recruiter’s Midwest Bureau] or something like that.  Go all the way back to my old tapes.  Really fuck with your head.

So watch yourself.  Assuming I’m giving you a classic Ceinwyn Dale eye-see-you sign through the tape recorder.

Javier Castillo, talking ‘bout Javier Fucktard Castillo.

Javier Castillo…take my worst aspects and faults then you take the Guild’s worst aspects and faults, add ‘em all up…then you got Javier Castillo and his Jaguars.  He’s a pugnacious alpha male asshole, kind of bully I just can’t stand.  Worse, he’s deceitful as all fuck, kind of guy stab you in the back to watch you bleed out long as it made him twenty bucks.  On top of all that he’s a traditionalist.  Opposite side of the coin from the Guild; Were Strong, not Mancer Strong.  Maintains the old ways, believes in racial purity, specifically that the more true indigenous blood you got in you—not tainted by the usual European rapeage and slaughter—the stronger a Were you make and a better warrior you’ll be.

Also kidnaps mancers from Central and Southern American shitholes and ransoms the Ultras to the Asylum.  What’s he do with the Intras?  He sacrifices them.  Not just old school shit, ancient blood rite shit.  Guy is high up on the ESLED and the Recruiter Most Wanted posters, just under the Curator.  Way higher than Horatio Vega, makes Vega look reasonable in comparison.  Which my brother-in-law just fucking loves, cuz the more monsters out there making him look reasonable, the more illegal shit he can get away with

Shit.

Shit.

Shit.

Kind of mood I’m in after listening to MacNess questioning Castillo for the better part of two hours.  My relationship as Horatio Vega’s brother-in-law is kind of an open secret at this point.  Lots know, but no one talks about it.  Only public declaration of the connection had come from Vega at the Ouroboros and most of the supernatural world was trying to forget about the Days of Supernatural Exhibition already…at least until they tried to hold a second one in a year or two.

Will not be attending…will not be defending my championship belt, even you put me in the ring with Paine.  Besides, by the time Paine and me finally fought it out, whole buildings would be crashing down.  “You hear anything from T-Bone on Pocket and Jesus and their vacation?”

Val gave me one of her what are you up to looks.  “Changing the conversation before I figure it out?”

“Just worried about them.”

Val smirked at me, still trying to figure out who would give testimony against me at a Guild trial.  Still, she said, “I called him when I got the coffee and they’re cutting the vacation short.”

“Huh,” was my opinion on that development from the other side of the world.

“At least they’re safe,” she said, taking another sip of coffee, “far better than the worst outcome either way…whether they found their special spot or not.”

“Suppose so,” I whispered.

Javier Castillo.

Oh, I haven’t forgotten the fucktard.  Told the Guild all about my relationship with Horatio Vega, about my sister being a Coyote, about how I started selling Vega SDRs recently, about how Castillo knew I’d won a lot of money at the Ouroboros and how it looked like a payoff, even started in on the floro-seeders and how Vega must be using them to grow opium or even [cocaine plants].

Made me look like shit.  Never mentioned anything about my business dealings being covered by the peace treaties and approved by the Learning Council.  At least the floro-seeders, never had bothered to ask permission about the SDRs.

Would’ve been enough to piss me off, but Castillo enjoyed it all, kept going.  Talked about how I was at both the Auction of Illicit Wonders and the Days of Supernatural Exhibition, despite both being declared illegal by the Learning Council.  How I was said to be passing off gold nuggets instead of cash nowadays.  How I killed Hector Vega while in the presence of a vampire baroness.  How I burned a man to death in the Ouroboros and it was all swept under the rug.  How I killed a fellow corpusmancer in a fight to the death.

Worst part was Castillo playing it up.  Knew all those Old Mancy fucks in the rotunda hated him, so he started siding with me, like he was impressed by it all.  Like I was one of the criminal players, a loose cannon, outside the law.  “More mancers were like him, maybe I wouldn’t hate you so much,” he ended to hisses from the crowd.

 “I don’t like this either, King Henry,” Val said, putting her cup of coffee on the table roughly enough that it sloshed wildly.  “Not being there, not even being here.  I don’t know how to be the homemaker girlfriend…that’s never been me.  Ceinwyn has the politics under control now, you’ve got the trial on your mind, Tyson and the rest are holding the fort down, and what am I doing today?  Fetching coffee?”

“You’re keeping me standing.  Very serious responsibility given how much I like to fall on my face,” I tried to get her to laugh.

No laugh, not even a smirk.  “I hate feeling like this.  It makes me think about what I told you…about what it’s like being a pyromancer and having no ability to fix anything.  That’s the one part of my job I like, that I have the clout to fix all the bureaucracy as long as I’m smart enough to find a way to undo all the knots.  But here, there’s no knots, there’s just…”

“I know the feeling,” I told her.

“All you do is make things,” she rebutted.

“There’s making and there’s fixing.  I don’t fix…I break.  Got me a big hammer.  I got exactly what you saying back then, about wanting to be a hydromancer or something like that.  Like when Jason was in that ring with Sapa and there was nothing I could do to reach him.  Being one of the whole sucks, Val.  Means we can’t ever be perfect.  No trying to guilt ya, but know how many times I’ve thought about how different that could’ve gone if you were there?  What if I was a pyromancer like Val?  Would Jason still be alive?

“I wish I was there too,” she whispered, eyes-without-irises in the past.

I tried again to cheer her up, “Promise that the next time there will be less trials and more shit to go boom, okay?”

She smiled, barely.  “Fireballs of Doom for all?”

“Sure.  But for now…this coffee is making my day.  So, square peg in a round hole or not, you’re doing an awesome job.”

“I promise I didn’t drug the drink this time around,” she joked with me, while taking a loud slurp of her own cup.

“You’d be on the floor by now if you had,” I teased back.

“Rookie mistake.” Her eyes-without-irises glinted with mischief.  “Next time I’ll do better.”

“What you gonna put in it?  Viagra?  Ride me till I have a heart attack?”

She snorted.  “You need Viagra at your age and I’ll be dumping you.”

“Relationship’s are about more than sex, Val,” I said with mock sincerity.

She starting laughing so hard she almost chocked on her coffee.

Never did guess who would be the fourth witness, given the way she reacted when the name was called.

*

But first…

Star Witness the Third:  Plutarch.

Or as MacNess called him out—after giving a five minute preamble about why the Guild had laws about golems and the use of personal fairies dating back to its founding, including a story I’d never heard about an Artificer called [] who raised his own golem army—Head Craftsman Paul Nixon.


More blue balls!  That's where I stopped and went with the hard cut route!  Also the mysterious fourth witness was supposed to be Annie B.  So we never got that!  But I think we can all agree that PIT OF NO RETURN was plenty big already without a massive court chapter added on top.  Plus the hard cut into Paine was pretty cool . . .

But I hope you enjoyed it as a . .  . door not taken thingy that who knows what it would've looked like after I actually put a few more drafts and edits into it.

Thursday, February 24, 2022

War to End All Wars Opening Rant/Preamble

And on to the next one!

This is total blue-balls material.  Might even cut it, not sure.  First draft, so will definitely be editing it.  But the opening KH rant is kind of tradition at this point...so...

Also, hey, real coverage this time around!


Or at least, ya know, coverage that took longer than me spending an hour on it...that's an important step!

Did I ever show you guys the Vicky cover btw?


Yup, I am totally trying to trick romance readers into checking this series out and having their world rocked, yes I am.

But here's the opening rant...subject to edits and removal and who knows.  Plan to disappear for a few months writing away, so...know that your writer is busy and happy and using his bed-desk-thingy.  Might pop in to chat about stupid movies or tv shows or video games, but don't expect the plethora of teases to start up for a while and release will be much later this year (OCT/NOV) if it does sneak into 2022.  The annoying usual delays of back problems, new COVID variants, and nuclear armageddon making this estimate extra special who-knows-but-probably--ya know, just typical 2020 The Trilogy of Suck events we've all come to accept as the new normal.

If you want to talk about EVERCHANGING DILEMMA, go chat in the spoiler allowed discussion thread.  Again thanks to everyone who stuck around, purchased, typo hunted, reviewed, and spread the word.  We are alive once again!

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Anyone still listening out there?

Apparently I’m still yacking my big ol’ foul mouth of mine.

King.  Fucking.  Henry.  Fucking.  Price.

Seventh year.

Hep.

Guess you could say I was more a King than ever before.

Seventh year and the last year.

Almost finished, kiddies.

Almost free of this piece of shit recorder.

Almost free of YOU.

Get back to my shop.

Been months now, ain’t it?

Months.

Months of talking to you, you spoiled fucktards got to have yourself a bedtime story before you even think about joining the Asylum.  Special bunch of jackasses, ain’t ya?

Seriously, which one of you fuckers out there still doubting about joining up with the Asylum Assimilation Plan?  Want to go Mad that damn bad, do ya?  Want to eat your own toenails for snack time?  Want to dance with the fairies in the invisible moonlight?  Want to off yourself with a spoon you named Gary?  Or worse, maybe pull an Isabel Soto and make your best friend’s brainpan go crack, leak all that nasty gray goo out on your pretty clean corpusmancer colors?

Really need fucking more?  Really?!?

You just the special one percent, ain’t ya?  Not the good one percent.  Don’t got no yacht with television C-list actresses all over your dick.  I’m almost thirty and they’re gonna cancel this pure shit CW show soon, I need to trap my ass a billionaire!  Nah, talking testing scores, not wealth.  Test scores go backwards.  Ninety-nine percentile:  best colleges in the country.  Ya know, the ones with all the Asians in ‘em.  First percentile:  don’t let them breed!  That one percent only get’s any points for managing to write their name down on the paper.  Such a fuck-up dipshit mouth-breather you guess randomly on a multiple choice test and still don’t get a single question correct.  So fucking stupid you defy odds and chance and the Bitch-Queen Fate herself.

Please tell me that you’re just listening cuz I’m funny.

Please.

Cock jokes make me pee my panties, King Henry!

Or I killed Magic Hitler or something accidentally heroic and this is historical record about how big my cock is.

Cuz…if you still need convincing…tell ya what?

Hope you fucking die.

Yup.

You need to die.

Dumb motherfucker like you don’t need anima in your life.

No way the world can trust you with that shit.

World shouldn’t even trust me with this shit.  Even if I did kill Magic Hitler with my six inch cock.  FYI.  Six inches.  Very respectable.  And I’m totally five foot eight.  Anyone else says otherwise and they’re lying.  I rigged the tape measure just to make sure.

So all you dumb shits click off the tape, go eat some crayons.  I bet the blue ones taste like berries!

For the rest of you just think I’m funny…and for the Magic Hitler slayer historians… 

There is a little tiny sliver more to be told, I do admit.

Blah fucking blah for months and still it ain’t all told.

Almost though.

Close, so close.

One year left.

One good story left to tell.

The penultimate performance.  Spread your arms in front of you and say it with me, kiddies.  The penultimate performance.   The crowning glory of the King Henry Price’s legacy at the Asylum as the greatest troublemaker and schemer and BAMF the school ever seen in all its years.  Got some sentimental graduation all touchy-feely shit wrapped up in it too, but…that’s not the good shit!

Since we already clarified that you’re attending the school and you’re just hear for me to make you laugh, we got to go out with the good shit!

Maybe just be a story for me this time around, more than for you.  My past, not your future.

Seventh year.  Hep.  The swan song.  The last ride, last dance, and last hoo-fucking-rah all rolled up into one!

The War to End All Wars.

A transitional year for the most part.  Like that for all students, ain’t it?  The college or the high school variety.  Just want to graduate and move on by the time you get to your last year.  Normal school you can maybe even kick back, take a few less credits and get a part time job, all that Full Growing House of Pains sitcom shit.  College too, start thinking about job offers, whether you gonna sell your firstborn’s left nut to pay for a master’s degree, or maybe even you gonna go wageless intern slave for some Hollywood producer, work as the replacement chode tickler when his favorite actress is out of town.  Hey…someone got to do it.  If producer chode don’t get tickled then we don’t get awesome comic book movies, so fucking get in there and tickle it like a superhero, champ!

Asylum has some of that…well, not so much the tickleage as the life decisions.  Doesn’t slow down to let you give yourself over into rumination or contemplation though.  Full fucking steam ahead at magic school.  Not that you’ll ever be totally free, Mancy being a life sentence, but…

Well, for whatever reason, during your last year at the place they load you down with all these new responsibilities.

Cuz when you think King Henry Price…you think responsible.

Responsible for drugging the waffles.

Responsible for getting Naomi Gullick grounded for six months.

Responsible for turning the Winter War into a complete fucking disaster.

Ain’t talking about burning down the Mound that one time neither, Boomworm should get the blame for that one, don’t care how many times she plays that ‘who me?’ act when the subject gets brought up.  Her, Miss Fucking Perfect, not the screw-up!  So there!

Nah, instead I’m talking about the Winter War of 2016.  The War to End all Wars.  All me.  Think it’s named that cuz it will never be topped?  Like Wrestlemania Seventeen?  Stone Cold versus the Rock…the Sequel!  You can’t top that shit!  Just give up.  Nah, that ain’t why.  Why it named that then?  Well…guess you’ll see, won’t ya?

Still some spoiled, impatient little shits, ain’t ya, kiddies?

See, wasn’t just the year I graduated from the Asylum. Was also the year that the Asylum faculty, in all their glorious wisdom, upholding the traditions of the past, decided that yeah, we should go ahead and let Class ’09 be student-advisors.

What could possibly go wrong?

That’s a bad idea, kiddies.  Asking Mary O’Connell to scrub out your pee-hole kind of bad idea.  Kind of bad idea that—after Class ’09 had inhabited the place for six whole years—should’ve made someone think.

But tradition is just such a thicc bitch, how you gonna take your eyes off that curvy, plump booty?

This ain’t a story of death, not a story of  love won or a story of love lost, just…a few ideas that got carried a little bit too far, collided, and then…we dropped the baby, he cross-eyed for the rest of his life, fucking my bad!

A story of competition, of gossip, of betting, and of tradition, all the shit makes that school well and lubricated, able to ignore its crazy.  All bundled up around the event where it lets the Crazy out for one lone week.

A story of rivalry.

A story of generations.

But we’re getting ahead of ourselves.

Don’t start with the action scene, do ya?

Only hack bastards do that type of shit.

Nah, told enough of these now to know the key is in the buildup.

Slow buildup.

Like a woman biting her bottom lip.

Ohhh, saucy!

What you gonna bite next, baby?

Why we ain’t starting with the Winter War itself.  Nah, we’re starting all the way back six months before the battle was joined.

Nah, starting before I even knew about the shit coming at me like a dripping, brown heat-seeking missile.

Starting when I still thought there was no fucking way the Asylum could possibly be that obtuse.

Starting before I had my proof that tradition is an insanity beyond all other insanities.

Hope on the ride with me, kiddies, cuz…

Away!  We!  Go!


Sunday, February 20, 2022

Author Q&A: The Returnination Edition

Haven't had one of these in...yeah, I actually don't remember, so...go ahead and ask whatever.

Prepare to be hit with the RAFO (Read And Find Out).

And also realize that we're talking over a million words of content here across 13 novels and I might not remember everything correctly off the top of my head, but I'll try.

And if you're a Goodreads user, head over to the blog to ask your questions there!

2/22 Update:  Taking some time off the net to try to focus in on WAR TO END ALL WARS over the "check your sales and adverting every hour" addiction I'm yet again developing.  Keep asking and I'll get to them all in due time!

2/27 Update:  AM very much addicted to checking sales, advertising numbers, and the news out of Ukraine, plus my back is being a bastard, so...we're going to wrap this up!  I'm spending a week with the laptop in the closet to reset my brain and then I'm going to get into WAR TO END ALL WARS.  Love all of you for sticking with me and happy you're still so engaged and interested in where the story is going!  But it's time for me to get back to writing and not basking in that new release glow.

Tuesday, February 15, 2022

Everchanging Dilemma Discussion Thread (Spoilers Allowed in Comments!!!)

It's release day!!!

Linkage:  https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09SGXND5Q

I try to stay out of these, so talk and mingle and don't kick anyone in the balls.

Unless they request it, I suppose...

Anyway.  Thanks to everyone who hunted the typos and to anyone who leaves a review and, of course, spreads the word I'm still alive.

This will probably be up as the top post for a while.  Physio, doctors, and getting away from the net to start in on WAR TO END ALL WARS and such.

So, get all your theories and feelings and "WTF Raley" out here.

2/16 Update:  Broke into the Top 100 New Releases for "Coming of Age".  Need a little bit more for Paranormal or Urban Fantasy though, so keep pushing!  Doing great considering all the difficulties and side novel and all that.

Physio has been cancelled going forward...my back is very not good.  Talking to my physician today, probably with the idea of consults and surgeons and all that super fun stuff.  Good news is that I won't be tortured for the next month, so means I can focus in on WAR TO END ALL WARS sooner.  Bad news is...uhh...spinal surgery...

Monday, February 14, 2022

[CLICK]

Button has been pressed.

Can take anywhere from a few hours up to...a long while.

Hopefully not.

Think the longest I've personally seen was 18ish hours with FM5.

You lot did riot a little bit, but no guillotines, so...try to behave yourselves tonight too!

I'm going to sleep.

Linkage and discussion thread tomorrow.

If it does go up quick-like...

Enjoy!


Update!

Linkage:  Everchanging Dilemma!!!



Saturday, February 12, 2022

Waiting Game

Just waiting for the Super Bowl (a pox on both their houses) and Valentine's Day to wrap up at this point.  Book's done, entered into Amazon and one button press will do the job.

All the beta readers enjoyed it, so...hopefully the rest of you will to.  I'll put up a discussion thread post release and then plan to mostly disappear the coming months as I focus in on the next book.

Been doing a bit of world-building in the meantime, finalizing backstory and family trees on the Divines and the Dragons and all things Creation Mythology.  It's not like I have no clue or I've been flying blind up until this point, but I do like to plan in a bit of nebulous fog of war so that inspiration plays a part in my stories.

Only after what happens in EVERCHANGING DILEMMA and what will happen in MOST OBVIOUS TRAP, time for some clarity for the writer, even if it takes the last half of the series to slowly filter out to your readers piece by piece.

And of course...there are clues already there and have been since the first book...


Wednesday, February 9, 2022

COVID and King Henry?

*do not start crazy shit in the comments!!!*

So one of the interesting side effects of THE GREAT DARK TIMES these last three years (my personal troubles with grief/illness not the pandemic) is that we've finally moved beyond the date that the Tapes are currently taking place in.

FM6 took place August 2019 and FM7 should be about February or March 2020.

Which, ya know, needless to say, some shit might have been going down in the world just about then.

Compounding this is that a significant chunk of FM7 takes place in East Asia...

😬

Because OF COURSE it would...

Also, FM8 would like take place October/November 2020 and involves half the novel being a trip across various US locations and it really doesn't stop there.  On and on and on just stuck in that time line in six month to year long skips.

Obviously the KHT are fictional and an alternate world, but I have tried to seed it with real world moments and pop culture to make it seem like it could indeed be happening right under our eyes.

But I don't think keeping that mirage in place to the point of adding in the pandemic and masking and lockdown and...however you feel about the issues that have sprung up out of the pandemic, I question if anyone wants to dwell on these things at this point instead of just trying to move past them the best we can, especially in media where the point is to entertain and give people a good time, some laughs, maybe the occasional moment of inspiration if you're lucky.

Of course, very easy of me to just say:  The Divine Moshi caused the pandemic to kill off humans and fuck with the Anima Quota numbers and yada yada and Slush cures COVID so who cares and yada yada.

Also I have missed stuff before, like Disney buying Lucasfilm or I thought electric cars/bikes would be more normal by now, etc.  I think T-Bone gets excited for Star Wars Episode 9 and the Han Solo movie, which just...no...no...no one was...my poor childhood, still...

But...point of this all is:  probably just going hard alternate history with this one and saying no pandemic in the MancyVerse.

FYI.

*do not start crazy shit in the comments!!!*